overcoming obstacles

for blog every day in may i am supposed to share with you what has been difficult for me and how i am overcoming it.

unfortunately i am not at a point in my life where i am ready to share my difficulties that are anything other than trivial. i've been going through some really trying times right now and eventually i will be able to share them with you and my experiences in getting through them. 

however; with anything else in my life that may be difficult, they're also pretty unimportant and not worth being anything other than resilient. when you have children you have to learn to pick your battles; that's definitely something you should practice in life anyway. when you spend all of your time trying to fix things that are out of your control, the bigger, more important things seem all too overwhelming and become more difficult than they really should be. my daily, difficult obstacles are simply overcome by letting go. that is something i definitely have to remember to do since i'm going through this difficult time in my life right now. i need all of my energy to get through this. 

are you going through some difficulties? how are you overcoming it? 

my infant is my best friend

i've been struggling lately with the term 'friends' and trying to find out what it really means beyond the webster dictionary. i've analyzed some past 'friendships' and even some current ones, to see if i can figure out a way to describe friendship in a way that fits with me.

i honestly feel incredibly alone right now. i feel like i have all of these 'friends' and yet where are they? they're sitting on the other side of the computer acting all concerned or supportive, or they totally want to hang out, but aside from a few 'what's wrong?' comments or 'i'm totally happy for you' or 'lets plan something next week', they're not there. all i do is sit at home with the baby and have no adult communication what-so-ever. my conversations are about asking an infant if he is poop or if he'd like another bite of avocado. don't get me wrong; i love being a total mommy! but us mommies need some adult friends too. cause right now, this mama's best friend is her infant.

am i the only one who is experiencing this? i do have real friends; the kind of friends that would be there for me at the drop of a hat and check in on me often to see if everything is okay. friends that i believe when they say 'if i lived closer, we would spend so much time together'. that's just the thing; they don't live around here. that's when i appreciate the convenience of being able to chat online, email, video chat. but the friends that live like 5 miles from me can't even give me the time of day. i'm not asking for much, and i'm not asking to be best friends [what does being a best friend even mean anymore anyway?], i'm just asking for some adult conversation at the park while our kiddos scrape knees and climb walls together. while our kiddos can build friendships that last and mean something so when they're adults and have kids they're not left having conversations with their infant best friend.